It came upon me at the dead of night
Usually I’d try to scream, kick around,
Try to move towards the light, despite
every effort I still wake up with scars
So this time am not going to try
to escape the gapping hole I’ll just lay
and let it unfold
in it’s usual way
few seconds after I prayed
I felt my essence, soul or whatever keeps us alive drain out of me but this time I didn’t mind
cos there are some things you can’t rewind
no matter how hard you fight it’ll happen in time
It came, laid next to me
maybe it noticed I didn’t even shake
so it crawled on me to have it’s way.
He said he loved me
Whispered that it wasn’t a sin
So I let him come closer
made attempts to take off my clothes.
Every thing that happened that day
died that day but is replayed in my head
once every two days.
It wasn’t rape,
it isn’t ever!
when someone calls you forever
and attaches baby to your name
then leaves you hanging after he
has had his way
So when the demons came and whispered to me I knew to listen, to heed and stiffen my heart to the voices of all those who claimed they loved me
I wouldn’t fight when they asked me to end my life cos I knew they were right
This world wasn’t made for one as feeble as I